Journal Entry: Mon Sep 29, 2014, 8:42 AM
Listening to: Need To Be Strong - Naruto OST
Reading: Night World Volume II - L.J. Smith.
Watching: RWBY Volume 1
One of the most interesting lessons I've learnt is that ex boyfriends can be so very laughable in what they do and/or say. Nope, I'm not talking about my previous ex, Nick, if you're wondering that. I'm referring to Chris, who was my second boyfriend. We dated for something like almost 7 months a few years ago.
Anyway as some/most of you know I have a Twitter account and I go there regularly to post/retweet things along with check out what's happening in the world and whatnot. Last night I had the idea (a very stupid one at that looking back on it right now) in checking out Chris' Twitter just to see how he's been doing due to the fact hm and I have never spoken to each other since we broke up. As far as I'm concered he seemed to be doing okay which was good in a way. I didn't speak to him or even followed him because honestly it's not worth it in my opinion. Instead I retweeted a picture of delicious looking cookie pizza thing that Pizza Hut was advertising from his page. If I would have know what will happen next I wouldn't have done it in the first place.
Not so long ago I checked my emails, one of which was an email from Twitter and it involved Chris. Eventually curiosity got the best of me and I opened up the email. It turns out that he left a comment on my recent picture of me posing with my Naruto plushie (which he bought for me when we went to an anime convention on our first ever date together).
This was the actual comment he made:
"Nice to see you like that gift I gave you... so can I have that book back we let you borrow now?"
Okay, now let me explain about the book. When him and I were going out (by this stage we were already a couple for 6 months) his mum borrowed me a book all to do with Japanese culture if memory serves me correctly. The problem was that two or three weeks later Chris dumped me and he deleted ad blocked me from all his social media websites including Facebook. To be honest in the aftermath of the break up I completely forgot about the book and I made it my sole aim to just move on from my failed relationship and generally trying to make myself more happier. Let's face it, nobody enjoys being dumped - I've had it happened to me twice now but hey, things like that happens in relationships. It's an experience that most of us have gone through at times.
Granted, his family did ask for the book back around one or two times a few weeks after the whole incident. But for the life of me I just didn't send it in the post to them for God knows why. Maybe it's because I was in the process of recovering or something like that. After a while they left me alone and stopped asking for me to return the book.
What makes me laugh is at this moment Chris expects me to send the damn book back via post. I mean, what is the entire point of bringing up something that happened back in 2010, which is 4 bloody years ago? I strongly believe that in bringing up the past when it should remain firmly in the past is rather pointless, stupid even. The only thing he's proving is how petty and immature he is. I'd hate to see how he would react in a serious crises since small, meaningless things seems to upset him. Also, him holding a grudge against me over something that has lost its significance over the years proves rather amusing to me. It's him that is making the issue, not me - so therefore it's all down to him at the end of the day. Let him cry over spilt milk if that's what pleases the boy. As long as it doesn't involve me in any shape or form, I will not express any concern or lose sleep over this pathetic matter.
I shown his message to my mum and she advised me to ignore it completely. Even she agrees with me in regards to the fact that he's acting like a spoiled little brat, and I'll trust my mum's judgement on this. For better measures, I've blocked him from both Facebook and Twitter so I won't have to deal with the likes of him any longer. It's a good thing I didn't respond to his comment at all and I think I done the right thing in not responding back in an angry and/or sarcastic manner. I suspect that he wanted to get a reaction out of me when he made that remark - well, too bad for him because I'm refuse to stoop down to his level and be involved in his bullshit melodramatic drama. The old me would have gladly snap back and retaliate twice as hard, but over the years I've changed as a person.
I had a brief look upstairs in my chest of drawers and it turns out the book is still there. But what his family expect me to do? Send it back to them after four years? Well, that's a bit of a challenge because I doubt I don't have their home address anymore. Also, they could have moved to another part of the UK so I'm not exactly a freaking mind reader when I haven't been in contact with them for a long time. Also, if his mother was that concerned about her book then why doesn't she message me on Facebook and talk to me about it? I fail to make sense of their so-called logic when it comes to resolving issues.
And what if I did send the book back? If I was a gambler, I'd bet instead of showing appreciation, his mother would make a rather stinging remark about me. Believe me, the woman wasn't all that keen on me when I was going out with Chris and she had proved that countless of times. I don't like dealing with people who act like that because a) it feels that I have to jump through many hoops in order to please them and get them to like me and b) it basically makes me feel uncomfortable in their presence.
I remember earlier on this year my therapist, Tina, suggested to me that I should get back in contact with Chris to see how he's doing and hopefully make some small talk to him. In other words, just make small footsteps in dealing with him. The reason why she said that in the first place was she thought that out of all the boyfriends I had, Chris seemed to have been one of the better ones.
I think it's safe to say in light of this bizarre situation I'd rather not rekindle a possible friendship with him when he still hasn't let go of the past. I've lost whatever sense of remaining respect I had for him right now. An uptight, over the top individual like Chris should build a wall and get the fuck over it. That's all I have to say.