Hate Being A Virgin

This is a poem for February 13th in celebration of National Haiku Writing Month.

I'm kinda being half serious/half joking at the same time. I know if people are supposedly having sex tomorrow (Valentine's Day) isn't my business whatsoever -  believe me, I don't pry into people's sex lives because things like that should remain private, and I'd be kinda embarrassed.

I think the trouble with me is that sometimes I find myself at war at myself over being a virgin. The good thing about it is at least I don't have to experience the misfortune of either catching an STD or having an unwanted pregnancy, or even be labelled as easy or something like that.

The bad thing ultimately is I think being a virgin at the age of 27 is practically unheard of and at times I do wonder if there's something seriously wrong with me because I haven't had sex with a man yet. No word of a lie right here, but I'm really sick and tired of still being a virgin and it bothers me. I'm one of those people who don't want to rush into losing their virginity with the wrong person/someone who isn't in love with me and regret it in the long run. But there's a voice in the back of my mind, perhaps it's doubt, which says to me, "You are foolish for waiting for the right man to come along. What if he doesn't exist, then what would you do in the end?"

I mean, I know virgin males really get the piss taken out of them - they're brutally ridiculed by their friends and other people for not being a "real man" in their eyes. When it comes to women, being a virgin is slightly more acceptable and is perhaps seen as a good thing I guess. But then the downside of the sexual reproduction cycle for the women is it rapidly declines in her mid or late 30s, and that's her last chance of having a child. It's alright for men because even if they're in their 60s or even older they can still get a woman pregnant.

And this kinda worries me because eventually some day I want to get married and have children. I'm not really relationship material due to the fact that every one of my relationships have failed miserably and I think I've been cursed with bad luck when it comes to love and sex because I'm still single. I've been single for a little over 2 years now.

I just believe that near enough every man wants a sexually experienced woman rather than wasting their time on a virgin like me. I know it sounds unreasonable but that's one of my fears. Besides, I don't think there are any males who are virgins and also who are at the same age as I am. Well, life sucks for me and my pathetic virgin status