New Way Of Saying Being Single

Sometimes I really hate the single status and how it's regarded. Honestly, it makes me think of the 'Forever Alone' phase in which you're very unhappy without having someone close by your side.

I admit I've been single for a week as my boyfriend of one year and four months decided to end things with me. And I've been going through a lot of emotions. Such as teary eyed, rejection, shock, hurt/upset, disappointed, mildly angered, disbelief, etc. There have been times during this week where I've been worried about not meeting anyone who is right for me that shares my interests. That and everywhere I look I just take one look at any man and think to myself "You're not right for me."

I mean, I've been in a relationship for such a long time and now coming out of it, well, it's a hard, painful adjustment for me. I'm sure in the future there will be occasions where I will feel pretty depressed about being single where there's people my age (almost 25) out there who is married already and have a few kids of their own.

I just feel kinda...getting left behind. Sure enough, I want to get married and and have kids of my own. But sometimes I wonder it's too late for me and that I won't end up having those things. I just don't want to die alone - that's one of my biggest fears. That and be a virgin for the rest of my life (which I completely don't want at all - sometimes I resent being a virgin.)

So, instead of me saying I'm single, I choose to say I'm in a relationship with myself. At least it sounds a bit more positive and optimistic.